Another year older and knowing less

It was my birthday yesterday. For the most part it was a rather uneventful and restful day for me. A few of my youth took me out to Panera for a birthday lunch which was nice (although, technically, I "took" them since I drove).

As I find myself sitting here today reflecting on my new-found age, I'm taken aback not by my accomplishments or how far I've come, but rather now much uncertainty there is in my life and how much I really don't know. I guess when you're young and your head is full of dreams, it can be easy to be sure of yourself, to know where you want to go and go for it. As I'm getting older, I'm realizing that in fact, I don't know all that much. Even in ministry, I feel like I'm just making it up as I go along sometimes - I have so much growing to do!

I guess where I find myself is in a place where I'm constantly reminded how small I really am in the grand scheme of things. There are still so many great opportunities out there, people to meet, adventures to live, jokes to laugh at - and here I find myself at 28. A little older. A little wiser. But still lost in the grand scope of my life.

I don't have all the answers. I don't even know all the questions. What I'm finding that as I continue on my journey to know God and serve Him with my life, that I am truly lost in His hands. There is so much I can't do without God's help. Perhaps I can do nothing without Christ, and maybe - just maybe - I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.